Friday, July 30
i must admit
i have missed a lot of the democratic convention
okay most of it
but i did catch the highlights
hey sue me
ive been in catering hell
i gotta say
i really like that john edwards
a real wipper snapper that one
sort of the best of al gore and the best of bill clinton rolled into one
i find myself wishing he was running
but then i guess VP is close too
it sure is the first time i recall ever paying that much attention to a VP candidate
and i gotta give john kerry credit for having a running mate that is more charismatic, much better looking and all round probably more likable then he is
hes sorta taking the jerry seinfeld approach here
i mean hey what was seinfeld without the side kicks?
i figure this either means john kerry is really confident
or really smart or both
cause edwards definately is the juice to a somewhat bland dude
hopefully this will be enough to get these guys to the white house
anyway on other news
for those who REALLY want to know whats up with the big ass milestone birthday for moi
yes shes making brownie points here
is throwing me a surprise birthday party
i know about cause
hey im a nozy bitch was you expect
but i dont know any of the details
so ill let you know how it went once i recupe
from what i assume will be a wild night
after some wild birthday action
not to mention catering a wedding this weekend
this mama is running off
to PROVINCETOWN MASS!
to her little itty bitty super tiny apartment on the beach
for a whole month of writing
and finding my inner creative soul once again
i have a painting hanging in the Provincetown Art Association Museum Summer Members Show
and got 180 pages written on my long ass short story turning into a novella
so creative juices
HERE I COME!
dont worry dears
i will be giving you updates
from the land of gay love, fabulous art and excellant water views
Wednesday, July 28
Milestone birthday ride
let me tell you
this here blondacious darling is on an emotional rock and roll rollercoaster
i've got the big ass milestone birthday coming up this weekend
i am torn between all the things i wanted to do by the time i turned
and all the things i hope i still have time to do before i turn um.. 31?
im supposed to start getting evasive about my age now
you know its weird
cause my entire young adult life
i always did things 10 years before i was supposed to
always looked 10 years older then i was too
at 15 i was the one everyone sent out to buy beer
cause i never got carded
thankfully by the time i turned 27 or 28
that all seemed to start evening out
on my last milestone birthday
i was amazed at how oh.. half the things on my list
including owning my own home finally (wooo hooo)
all happened the month of my birthday
it was like a last dash to the finish line
so here i am
my biological clock is about to spin its last
i never did become a world famous
writer or painter
and i find myself turning to grandma moses
as a role model
but on the other hand
there are a few things
i now choose
to concentrate on
at my 20 year high school reunion
i was amazed at how most of the other alumni
seemed to have settled into middle age
and into a life that maybe they didnt choose but just got taken by
they all looked like well dressed middle aged drones plodding along
i love that heading into this milestone
i am living my life
and still dreaming
and still hoping
and still trying
and still reaching
maybe the fame, success, kids and marriage didnt happen
i can still adopt...
and i can still marry
and i can still achieve creative success and acknowledgement
i mean shit
i have got spunk
and lots of energy
and i look good in a bikini (considering the milestone and all)
and most of all
i have a surprisingly low amount of cellulite
here i go
head first into the next phase of the rossi story
wish me luck
Tuesday, July 27
well its politics
as things start heating up
for the election
i caught a bit of Bills speech
and i gotta say
the dude looks great
post president stuff has really agreed with him
i always liked bill
actually he was the first president we ever had that i really liked
and bush senior was the first president i ever hated
and his son the baby bush is the first president ive ever
feared and hated
no i dont fear the baby bush personally
im pretty sure i could kick the shit out of the little prick
but i do fear what another term would do to this country
and to this world
i dont like the picture the baby bush wants us to think
that to be kind
to be careful
to be smart
to be concerned about working with the other countries in this world
means to cave into terrorism
im pretty damn sure you can do all this at the same time
id like to see a president up there
who is not a kazillion dollar trust fund baby
did not run a major terrorist associated corporation
and who knew how to make nice
other world leaders
i liked seeing Clinton on TV
and i miss seeing a president on TV
that I like
im still pissed at this country for ruining his last two years in office
obsessing about where he put his cigar
and im still convinced that if we weren't so obsessed with Lewinsky
"911" might not have happened
think about it
if the Baby Bush wins the next election
im officially calling for a revolution
its time to fight for our independance once again
Saturday, July 24
stuff and more stuff
ive been knee deep in rice noodles and bok choy
in catering hell
and ive lost touch with world events for the last few days
so sorry not to post
but you know how it can be
i do have a few things id like to bitch about if you would endulge me dearies
top of my list is this
if you hate what you are doing for a living
then either QUIT! for crying out loud
or suck it up, put on a fake face and go to fucking work
but don't bring everyone else down by moaning and groaning and bitching
and complaining all damn day and night
grow up and suck it up!
other things i'd like to bitch about are
the fact that the Republican convention is coming to NYC
and my whole damn town is gonna be in traffic hell
not to mention chuck full of men with really bad hair cuts
and really, really bad suits
would also like to bitch about this
it would appear
that i have another birthday coming up next weekend
and its shall we say, one of those turning point birthdays
you know a mile stone
and there were so many things i was supposed to do before i turned
im feeling rather old
and never did
publish that novel
have th 2.5 kids
or achieve zero body fat
but im working on it
lastly...i'd like to bitch about "Spiderman Two"
my god did that movie suckkkkkkkkk
hey It's called a plot and even action flicks need one
im in the wrong biz
thats all i got in me for now
Monday, July 19
this little darlin rocked on last night
my old neighbor K took me to the huge ass Prince concert in New Jersey last night
i just seem to be getting sucked in N.J. every second these days
and oddly i have not been to the Continental Arena since i went to see Bruce there who i have already mentioned kicked ass in concert
but i dont like the dude personally
but i digress
my point is
how the hell long has it been since Prince did a concert tour?
and how old is this guy?
i mean honey
he is 90 pounds of pure raw energy
this little thing
was like the reincarnation of
sly from the family stone, jimmie hendrix
and just a bit of frank zappa
all rolled up into one little flirty
bad ass little mo-fo
i loved that he dragged a whole bunch of some of shall we say
the large ladies up on stage to dance with him
this seems to be the era of my seeing folks i am not fans of
but fans of in concert
i have never purchased a Prince Cd (or album)
this was a concert of a lifetime
i just wanted to take that little itty bitty boy home
give him a sex change
and make him my bitch
what can i say
i like a hairy chested lesbian
Saturday, July 17
Do you ever feel like you’re the last honest business person in the world?
Honeys let me tell you.
That’s how I’m feeling big time today.
I shall mention no names, but a business associate of mine made an agreement with me recently. I then proceeded to change my entire life around that agreement only to get a call from her a few days ago, just before we were supposed to sign contracts to basically let me know that while I was changing my entire life around our agreement, she had been negotiating behind my back with someone else to make a better deal for herself.
But you know, she wants to stay friends and business associates even if it’s oh, a bit too pesky to compensate me for any of the loss I've suffered in all of this.
Honey’s I have had it. I truly am beginning to think that there is just no reward for being a descent, honest, ethical woman in the world of business especially in New York City.
What is the pay-back exactly? To be stomped on, screwed over and totally messed with by supposed nice people?!
Well there’s another side of me too.
And its just as honest and just as ethical.
That side is the one that goes into full scale battle mode when I’ve been lied to and cheated.
That is the side of me that will do anything it takes to right this wrong.
That is the side of me few of met and the few who have are still shaking their head in astonishment and in some cases, in horror.
Because people think that just because you are an honest, decent, kind person, that you won’t fight back, you wont’ defend yourself.
And what people don’t realize is that sometimes the fiercest warriors are the ones who have the most goodness in their hearts.
I’m tired of being lied to, tired of being cheated and tired of being tossed about like a piece of trash by people who smile in my face and act like they give a hoot about me.
I’m putting on my armor, my shield, got my sword and my bow and arrow.
Got a slingshot for Goliath too.
You might wanna stand back a bit.
Wednesday, July 14
sung to the tune of
"This land is your land" or whatever the song title of that is...
This land is your landdddd
this land is my landdddddd
from the Iraq borderrrrrr
to Staten Islanddddddd
From the oil tanks in Saudi arabiaaaaaaa
to the Halliburton empireeeeeeeeee
this land was made for you and meeeeeeeeee
unless you're gay, pregnant and want an abortion or anyone who speaks out against the war of course
this land was made for you and meeeeeeeeeeeee
and welcome once again to my brain
here i sit on day 3 of grey, gloom and funky rain
but i am about to leave on a pilgramage for the town of my youth
Asbury Park New Jersey
growing up Asbury was a close to city life as I got
its a big town, not a small city
and when i was a kid it was alive with giant department stores
roller coasters, skee-ball, the palace where i traded in all my pifered coupons for the entire James Bond action set
and much much cotton candy
by the time i reached high school
ruin had already began to set into Asbury
my beloved amusements disappeared
but Asbury was still a haven for gay folks
something rare in NJ in the late 70's early 80's honeys
i went to my first gay bar in Asbury "The Odyssey"
and my second gay bar "The M&K"
i kissed a girl
i wooped it up
i thought honey this is living
then they boarded up the palace
they stopped replacing the glass on the art deco convention center
I moved to NYC when i was 16
and everytime since then that i returned to Asbury
another slice of its art deco wonder years was in ruin
now to the tears of many a historian
they tore down the palace
and grass roots cool people are at it again
and Asbury is coming back
having an arty, funky edgy
new york style
and i aim to be a part of it somehow
even if it does take almost two hours to get there
i shall keep you posted
this land it your landddddddddd
this land is my landdddddddd
from the drag queens of Asburyyyyyyy
to the dyke soccer moms of queensssssss
from the boys who love boysss
to the babes who love babes
this land was made for you and meeeeeeeee
so stop trying to away my ^%$$##^&&*# right to marry!!!!
Sunday, July 11
MY, my my how energetic George Dubya Bush is
While in the midst of skirting mainstream outrage against him taking us to war with false and faulty info..
He still finds time to fight for a constitutional amendment to stop gay marriage..
Wow, Georgy Poo must take his vitamins in between golfing and sport shooting…
What a cowboy!
Yesindeedeee the baby bush just doesn’t wanna see any queers get hitched under his watch..
Wanted dead of straight…. He’s probably saying behind closed doors right now
Isn’t it just so refreshing to have a born-again Christian in the white house
Cause you know America is all about forcing religious beliefs on the non believers..aren’t we?
So what’s next for Georgy Pooo since he’s got all this energy flowing?
Hmmm how bout a nice inquisition Spanish style circa late 1490’s…
Sure…first the baby bush can stop all the equal rights for gay Americans
Then he can force them to either convert to heterosexuality or be tortured to death, their money and property seized by his chosen crew of clergy..
Oh what a grand day it will be for the loyal flocks of the Christian Right
And after all it’s the kindest thing they can do as good Christians because if they let the evil gay people continue to have sex with the same sex why they are surely sentencing those queers to eternal damnation
Now aren’t they?
So here’s to you George W Bush for all your energy
And for your non stop mission to fight satan wherever you can..
Only one problem little bushy
Seems you’re becoming quite the little devil in the process… but awww those horns look so cute on you
Tuesday, July 6
This girl is scared
Here I am in Greenport Long Island
Where I have gone on my annual pilgrimage with my goddaughter Z so we can bond and so I can bond with my best gal pal T..
Its basically 6 days in which Rossi gets to explore her inner mom and I find out that yes, yes, yes, I love my goddaughter and I love the idea of raising a kid
But no, no, no IM NOT READY…
Anyway Greenport used to be a sleepy little cute town, very anti-hamptons, filled with fat tourists and bikers and locals drinking beer and downing fried shrimp…
But not its getting a tad trendy, with hip little new york esqe hotels popping up and restaurants in monotone colors and more then a few oh so cute places to get a cappuccino…even the dive bar in town now offers internet access.
It was bound to happen dears
Bound to happen..
Anyway being in Greenport on the 4th of July feels a lot like being in America central
It’s a very patriotic town..flags everywhere, fireworks cracking from half a dozen houses..
Its an easy town, with a super kid friendly edge, but there is enough all American conservative-ness.. to keep me from..well marching thru town a t-shirt that reads..
LICK BUSH… if you know what I mean..
But honeys..i have been thinking about Bush a lot while ive been hear..and NOT THE GOOD KIND…jeez couldn’t they have given the buy another name..now im gonna have to start calling it chochita…or muffy…or some such thing..
Anyway…here’s what ive been thinking..
I had a hell of a lot of readers after “911” who read my site for the first person point of view of watching the towers fall, volunteering at ground zero and then basically spending a year of my life crying about it. Hey sue me the shit fucked me up okay?!
A lot of right wingers loved my pro-Israel rants… (Zionism makes strange bed fellows) but honeys the second I started on my pro gay stuff, half of them fell off my world and after the first anti-bush rant the rest of them fell off my world..
So I’ve got less readers now and its sad..for moi cause of course I love being popular ( get a date for the prom…the whole shebang) I mean im a writer I long to be read..
But I can’t, won’t and don’t alter how I feel to court readers..
My fave readers are the ones who read my site even though they don’t agree with me and my fave sites are the ones I read who welcome my comments even though I don’t always agree with them..
I would call that…the American way..
So here’s what I need to say and if you don’t agree with me that’s fine…and if you want to leave me a comment that’s fine too..but play nice okay… you can get your point across respectfully… it just takes taking a deep breath first..
From the bottom of my heart… I really and truly am afraid of what will happen to this country if Bush is re-elected.
Honeys the first time of any president is only a glimpse of what they are about, cause they’re still worried about being re-elected. It’s the second term in which they crank.
In his first term george DUBYA bush junior… took us to war and lied about the reasons why, snuck in and took away some of our serious rights of liberty with The Patriot Act, went to war taking millions of tax payer dollars with him against the rights of gays to marry, decided that a women’s right to choose was not hers after all and starting doing just about everything he could to push us back to the days of back-room abortions, pretty much annihilated all of the world wide support we had built up with Clinton our master schmoozer and, oh, his pipe-line dreams aren’t exactly the best for the environment either.
But that’s okay cause Bush doesn’t care about what will happen to the earth after hes dead. He needs to get that oil here and now. Damn those pesky consequences.
Honeys I don’t really know how I feel about John Kerry. He hasn’t stirred up in me fits of respect, affection anything like that. But I do know he is NOT George Dubya Bush and for now, that’s good enough for me.
I’m frightened and yes, of course, part of me is frightened of another September 11th, but most of me is frightened of a president who has harnessed and magnified and amplified our fears to play us like suckers.
I’m frightened of a president who had made millions and millions of dollars with the Saudi’s who magically never seem to appear as enemy targets even though they create, house, spark, finance and give birth to a huge ass chunk of the terrorism this president says he taking away our civil rights to fight.
And im sitting here in all America Long Island with hundreds of flags and baby strollers and smiling happy people holding hands…and I’m wondering how long we’ll all be smiling.
Saturday, July 3
Virginia is NOT for Lovers
As the 4th of July approaches
we are supposed to be excited about barbecues
celebrating this great country of America
where we gained our freedom from the Brits
and have stood out as an open, democratic, free society…where all men (and women) are supposed to be equal
for 228 years now..
but on this 4th of july i am thinking of Virginia
the state that sits between the north and south of this country
but has always swayed south
Virginia has done what i did not think anyone could do in this modern political arena
shocked the hell out of me
by demanding a ban on gay rights, by denying gays in their state the rights to protect each other
in domestic partnerships, in insurance and in all the other ways,
we gay americans have after many, many generations of strife finally been able to gain for ourselves elsewhere in this country
Virginia basically just said no to gay rights, setting the state back to an ideology from before Stonewall..
For the next little ditty I will quote directly from my fave queer site and the one marked on my linky love list “Queerday”
“Fearful that wills, medical directives and other contracts between gays and lesbians will be undone by legislation that takes effect about 300 people filled a Roanoke church Wednesday night to decry what is being called the nation's most extreme anti-gay law.
The gathering, one of seven across Virginia, was both a gay-rights pep rally and a planning session on how to challenge the law.
More than a dozen speakers lambasted the Affirmation of Marriage Act, passed by the General Assembly to outlaw civil unions and other such arrangements.
Critics and some legal scholars say that the law actually could go much further, invalidating wills, power-of-attorney agreements, insurance benefits and other legal agreements held by gay couples.
Starting today, rally organizer Molly McClintock told the crowd, gays will enter "banks, hospitals, schools and other institutions not knowing if they can protect their partners, their families and their assets."
I also need to say thanks to Dave of Interrobang who popped me an email to wake me up to this shit, while I was till in vacation mode
Its funny how human rights works
One huge step forward like Massachusetts is always met with a hate filled backlash from the ignorant, the racist, the homophobic, the scared shitless
This 4th of July I urge you
To speak out against the onslaught against human rights that has just happened in Virginia
To say loud
To say proudly
“I am an American and I demand that all Americans be treated equally in this country!”
To say too
“ I am an American and I demand that my government speak for me, not to me and not against me.”
Whatever happened to Virginia is for lovers anyway??!!
Friday, July 2
goodbye to marlon B
(SUNG TO THE TUNE "GOODBYE NORMA JEAN BY SIR ELTON JOHN)
goodbye marlon B
though i never understood a single word you said
i liked the way you broke the camera lens with one single godfather look
goodbye marlon B
though i never understood how someonee so hot got so dom deluiseish
i loved you in the streetcar named after you at that age
goodbye marlon B
though i really hated that movie with matthew broderick
i loved the way you made fun of yourself, showed a lot of style
goodbye marlon B
though i really liked james dean a bit more then you
i loved the way you made motorcycles part of 1950's bad boy sex (and bad girl sex too)
goodbye marlon B
though i really think you might have been happier as an un-known poet in Italy
i loved that you ignored the press and ate as much as you damn well wanted to
goodbye marlon B
you sit amongst the greats
and i suspect
kick their friggen ass