i spent some of my morning watching the televised memorial service from ground zero..

i think the moment that affected me the most was when the bell was struck 3 times
at 9:59 AM to mark the moment when the north tower fell

I remembered in an instant, standing on my roof watching in something ions past shock and confusion as the smoldering tower impossibly collapsed in a sea of silver cards..

what i realize now is that nothing, not the south tower falling, not the many ash covered faces of ground zero, not the firemen crying a few feet from me, not the broken shards shooting up from debree, nothing shocked me after 9:59 AM 6 years ago..

in many ways my entire life is marked in the before and after of that moment..

i know that i am completely changed since that morning
i have no idea, nor will i ever know, who i would be today
who any of us would be
where we would all be if 911 had not happened
i only know
like all of you i wish it had not happened
i only try to be a better person
since it did

what i choose to remember most
is the kindness
the selflessness
the heroism
the hope
passed on
by total strangers to each other

today is a day
to love
not to hate
although it is more then reasonable to fill your hearts with anger
and fury
for me
the best way to honor all those who lost their lives
is by helping others live their lives

i choose love

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