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Wednesday, November 16 Dear God
Dear God Please help me I’m confused and I could really use your guidance here I was taught growing up that to follow you meant I had to be believe in the old testament but not the new one and that all those folks who thought they were worshipping you by worshipping Jesus were misguided because Jesus was in fact a rabbi and a very talented one but not a son of god any more then we are all your children..so okay…I got that…and never really cottoned to the notion of Jesus being anything more then a truly passionate, Kabalistic, spiritualist who was so inspirational that millions around the world follow his teachings today..but I gotta believe that the poor guy has to be in something that must feel like hell to him now because from everything I know about him, he was a kind peace loving fellow.. so if he’s been looking down and seeing the millions of people murdered in his name he’s might wish he was never born..or so one might think..but I digress.. Here’s where I’m confused you see I’m Jewish because my parents were and that’s what they taught me..and most Christians are Christians for the same reason…so if I and a Christian person were switched at birth they would now be Jewish and I would now be Christian and if that’s the case then the religion we follow really and truly can not be what decides our after life if there is one because its all so circumstantial. Right now the world seems torn apart by Moslem fundamentalists who are blowing themselves up and murdering a whole lot of innocent people all in the name of mohammed who is another person that seems to me to have been a decent kind person from what I’ve heard and who if he can look down on us must be pretty damn miserable seeing all the death in his name too.. But if I could have swooped down and grabbed one of those self righteous ALLAH chanting suicide bombers when they were a baby and dropped them off in the crib of say a Baptist in Indiana they would most likely grow up as Christian as the day is long…so again I say the religion we follow is all about circumstances and therefore can not be what determines our after life if there is one.. I’ve met some rabbis that were so hypocritical they would just walk by a dying person in need if they were not Jewish and I’ve met atheists who would give their last dime to a stranger. I’ve met folks who go to Church every Sunday and don’t give a rats ass about anyone but themselves and I’ve met supposed sinners who have the heart of a saint.. I’ve got pals who gave up their college education, their sense of right and wrong, the freedom of choice, expression and dreams to follow Jehovah and are now considered outcasts by the same religion they dedicated their life too simply because they want to ask questions, or want to make love or want to speak out loud and proud. So here’s what I want to know God…if that is in fact what you would like to be called. I have no idea if you might prefer to be called Hashem or Josephine. Did you drop pebbles of truth on this planet and let them scatter in the wind, then give man and woman free choice to see what we would do with these seeds and watch as we sprouted up all over the place with all different sorts of beliefs that quite often made us feel righteous enough to commit genocide? Or did you simply create us and then go on to other things perhaps other worlds and let us make up our own stories and then kill each other in the cause of them. I know I sound cynical but its hard to fathom all this endless death in your name and its hard to comprehend why people don’t understand the simplest lesson of them all that A life spent causing pain is a lost life, a curse of a life no matter what form of god you may have dedicated it to.
I’ve got my glass to your wall Lord…but all I hear is sadness Hmmm
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