well its V-DAY
a day of making love, giving flowers,
eating chocolates..rolling in the warm embrace of romance
unless, of course, you find yourself date-less
in which case Valentine's day can be a day of depression, bad Chinese food, a migraine from too much MSG and a full scale bloat-a-thon from too much of those cheap chocolates from the 1.99 heart boxes you bought at the drug-store..
honey's i've been at every end of V-day--( no pun intended)
ex lover number 22 and i actually broke up on valentines day
ex lover number 20 had dinner with me on valentines day
after we'd broken up, gave me a gigantic stuffed white bear, led me on the entire night and then told me..that hey..she just wanted to remember me with one last nice night...and essentially..have a nice life cause i'm going back in the closet...where she has remained i do believe ever since..poor thing...
i threw the %$#^&*(*^#@ bear out!
i have also exchanged rings (cant remember for which body part these rings where though) on valentines day
and found myself lost in the ecstacy of deep romance (SEX)
which brings me to today
to this Valentines day..2004
which appears before me a somewhat mixed bag
my day will not be one of champagne in bed
roses on the pillow from which i awaken
chocolates scattered like a path through my home
it will be one of dealing with VERY (AAAK) high maintenance clients
while LA C..goes on business meetings all over god's green earth
or well Manhattan (which is the same thing isn't it?)
but for the night..
La C and i have plans for a fun movie and cozy dinner
and hopefully a stress free night of relaxing and enjoying each other's company
she and i have not had an easy ride
and it's made me understand that everyone can love
and everyone can lust
but after the love, the lust, the excitement starts to morph into something
tangible and real and often, very very hard
most folks hit the road
or stick around on the outside but hit the road on the inside
intimacy is an amazingly scary thing
and so is trying to work things out with another human being
who may very well have opposite needs to your own
and opposite fears
so along comes Valentine's day
a time to celebrate how sexy, fun, romantic and sweet love can be
and i fall into this holiday knowing that while all those things are true
they are not true all of the time
and maybe even not true most of the time
but they are always
always
always
worth fighting for
