you know sometimes when i write for this site
i have the feeling that enormous wafts of love
and feedback and support and delicious
praise are all around me
wrapping me up like in a warm blanket
and sometimes
well lately
i have the feeling
that im all alone
in space
writing this site
and no one is out there
and no one can hear me
like the tree falling in the forrest that no one hears
yeah
i check the site meter
and see that folks are coming by
but still theres that nagging void
like i'm the only one not picked on the class trip
what ive figured out is that even a kazillion years later
no matter how old you get really
if you took shit in grammar school
never mind the fact that you might have say
become a bad ass rock and roll pink haired
fuck you and die teen in high school
if you took shit in grammar school
if say
maybe once or twice you had no one to sit with
in the cafeteria
then honey that stays you with you
forevaaa
its the reason
i have so much attitude
the reason i leave them before they leave me
the reason
i walk like a truck driver with a huge penis
even though im a girl
its the reason
i work out
the reason
i hide behind my hair
the reason i dont get stage fright on radio
but do live
its the reason
im a totally freaked insecure
tart
and i need
lots
and lots
and lots
and lots
of love
sigh
well
now you know
