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Wednesday, May 21

fear knot

so i got myself into a strange mood last night
might have something to do with the fact that i watched the final episode of
BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER ( booo hoooo why meeeeee …picture nancy kerrigan here)
and then chased buffy
by watching the second half of "Hitler the Rise of Evil"

Buffy was intense..and while I loved the whole let's make all the girls slayers thing
and the lets blow up sunnydale and kick hell to well hell
i was a little let down by the final moments of the show
sorta anti-climactic
buffy just smiling as all her pals ask her
what do we do now?
but then i thought on it and took it as kinda poetic
an open book
she's smiling because for the first time
since she learned she was a slayer
her future is uncertain
the world her oyster
and all that
kinda cool

what i shoulda done was just shut the boob tube off
and rolled in buffy for a bit

hmm that sounded sexy

anyway
i watched hitler

i appreciated that the two part movie
focused on his rise from little abused boy
to big abusive satan
and did not focus on
what he did after he rose to power
namely genocide

what i found most frightening
was the part
towards the end of the movie
when he uses the destruction of a
major landmark
to install fear in the people
and uses that fear
to take away civil rights
to establish a special security force
not the army, but a special force
a home-land security force
and he links all
military and government
to fall in line under him

does this sound familiar?

i'm sorry but the whole
thing was a little de ja vus

for moi

the world trade center gets bombed
the fear in all of us is used
for the baby bush
to take away our civil rights
under a little dandy called the patriot act
and then link the various protective government agencies
under something called home-land security

you gotta admit
that's a freaky bit of similarity

the major difference of course
is us

the AMERICAN people

we would never let our president grab so much power that he would be able to annihilate innocents

turn our country into a police state

make homosexuality a crime punishable by a trip to the camps

we would never stand by
while our president
stripped away our rights of freedom of speech, press, self expression

we would never stand by while our president
targeted innocents amongst us for genocide

or would we?

what scared me the most last night
was when i put myself in the shoes of the average german during that time

if sticking up for the jews
could have meant the murder of my lover, my family
my close friends

would i have had the courage?

what if it happened here in America?
and it was not the jews
but the moslems

already i have issues
HUGE ISSUES
over moslem fundamentalists who have created so much evil
and terror

would i put my life on the line
and the life of my family to protect innocent Moslems
people who have a way of life I know nothing about
who already have started to symbolize something negative to me???

i would like to think i would
i would like to think my sense of humanity would outweigh my fear
or any prejudice these times may have instilled in me

just like i'd like to think that in nazi germany i would have hidden jews
joined the french resistance
poisoned nazi soldiers
stolen their machine guns and plowed them down

done something!

but i don't know

I don’t really know how brave I am
When it comes to the death of people I love

and all this
somehow
last night
just felt
a little too close to home
for me

maybe i'm just nuts…

I mean the baby bush is certainly a far cry from Hitler or anyone like him

And I even admit

Yes I admit that there are things I have liked about the baby bush

Namely his support of Israel
And his taking out of the Taliban the numero uno killers of women

I hate &^%$#* women killers

But The Patriot Act is frightening

And I think what’s more frightening is to use fear to guide a country

What you think this is only a german thing?

A country guided by fear is just how the communist witch hunt happened.

It’s just how the American Japanese camps happened.

And it’s how slowly and without a lot of us noticing..the fear of “911” and the fear of continued terrorism is being used to create laws that little by little chip away at our constitution.

I was not anti-war against Iraq.

But I felt truly frightened that the people who were anti-war were treated as they were.
That the human rights organization here in New York had to get involved because people who demonstrated against the war were being treated as possible terrorist sympathizers.

I was terrified that people were afraid to speak out if they were anti-war because of what might happen to them.

I was even concerned about an FBI file being created for me because of things I have said on this sight.

I'm sure there is an FBI or CIA or home-land security file on me..

Better make sure you get a picture boys! My sex appeal is why I'm so dangerous.

but I digress....

This is America!

We’re supposed to feel free to open our big fat mouths and say whatever the hell we want to say even if you hate it.

And you’re allowed to open your big fat mouth and tell us to screw ourselves.

The government should not treat anti-war folks like criminals as long as they are not committing a crime while getting their point across.

If they are arrested, they should certainly not be interrogated as possible terrorists!

Hello jack-asses…being anti-war usually means you’re a pacifist not a terrorist.

Duh!

Anyway…I’m a little worried about us all but the very fact that I’m sitting here writing this and you’re sitting here reading this…means that things should be okay.

Right?

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