Jill Matrix

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Tuesday, September 10

September 11th 2002

September 11th, 2002


Put aside all your busy thoughts.

Turn off the television.

Shut off the CD player.

Be still.


Be present in this moment.

Be here, with these words.

Be here entirely.

Breathe in.


Feel this moment.

This moment is a gift.

This day is a miracle.

You are here.

You are alive.

You have a capacity to love that is so vast you could never reach its limits.

There are no limits.

One year ago today, you watched thousands of innocent people die.

You watched two seemingly invincible icons crumble.

They were the big twin brothers at the bottom of the city, boyish and pompous and rich and powerful and young and playful. There were nothing like the simple elegance and constant beauty of their classically elegant older sister, the Empire State Building, but they were family. They were our boys. Just like we often do with family, we took them for granted until they were gone.

Now our baby brothers are dead.

One year ago, you watched something so horrible that no disaster movie will ever feel quite like a movie again.

You saw them jump.

You saw them disappear into a mountain of dust.

And when it was all quiet again, you saw the few, far too few, survivors crawl out, covered in layers of chalk, blinking, helpless and hopeless.

You felt helpless.

You felt hopeless.

Some of you, may have relived that day a thousand times and told yourself all the things you would do differently if you could go back in time.

Maybe you would have tried to help.

Maybe you would have been kinder to the people around you.

Maybe you would have remembered to tell the person lying next to you that you love them.

Well itís September 11th again.

It is today.

It is now.

So what are you waiting for?

There are people who need to hear your voice. Tell them you care.

Walk everywhere today. Find total strangers and give them something, anything, a simple gesture of kindness. Buy lunch for a homeless person. Go to an animal shelter and save a life. Take your shoes off and walk through the grass.

Look in the mirror.

Do you like what you see?

Do you feel that youíve done enough?

If you donít feel that youíve done enough, congratulations!. Youíve still got time. Get out there and spread yourself around like peanut butter. Youíve got so much to give.

If you do feel like youíve done enough than Iíve got news for you. Youíre full of shit! There is never enough. There can never be enough love or goodness.

One year ago today, we watched our family be murdered. Maybe they were of no relation to us. Maybe they were strangers. Maybe. But they were part of us.

Havenít you wondered why it is that you mourn these strangers so deeply?

How can you feel their deaths so personally?

Why even now do you feel chills when you think of them?

Why is it when the families of the victims appear on television talking about their lost loved ones you feel like you understand? You feel the loss. You feel guilty for even trying to share a slice of their pain, but you do feel their pain.


Because they are your family too.

Because we are all in this together.

It is September 11th again.

Here, now, today, in this moment, we are in ď911.Ē

Today is ď911.Ē

Here is your chance.

Donít make their deaths be in vain.

Try to fill this terrible cruel void in our hearts, in our skyline, in the cosmos, with something else.

Fill it with your goodness.

Fill it with your love.

Fill it with your honesty.

Fill it with your bravery.

Fill it with your vulnerability.

Fill it with you.


I started my personal web site at my old address on Rossi.blogspot where many of you probably first found me, one year ago and wanted to finish it on this day; September 11th 2002.

All new rants will be right here at rossirant.com.

This site has been something more than a voice for me. Itís often felt like salvation.

Thank you for listening.

..and thanks in advance for staying with me. I'll keep ranting as long as you'll keep reading.

A special thanks to Nancy at jillmatrix
For creating my new web site for me as an awesome birthday gift and for helping me every step of the way with my old wed site. Sheís been like the Florence Nightingale of wed-land for moi. Thanks Flo!

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